No idea why I feel so... What is the next path in my life?
To be frank, I feel so scared, so worried, paranoid? upset? I can't describe how I felt. I guess the best way to describe them will be 'in-the-short-run' and 'in-the-long-run'.
Well.. In the short run, I'm gg to face whether to extend my contract after IAP a not. I guess I'll called this as being paranoid. Yea. Indeed I am.. in a way, peers around me has alrdy been prompt whether they wish to or not. For me, partly yes..cause I dun wan to be FREE during that period, I wan to work and I'm not sure if the relief teaching would be successful. Partly no.. because.. I guess I dun have to mention.
Sigh...
In the long run, I've already visited webbie of the 3 local university. After seeing NUS, I dun really wanna carry on with the other 2 as I felt so lost. I don't know if I'll get through any of these local uni. I don't know if I can really survive in Uni. I don't know where to go, which faculty I want to be in and I don't know if what I chose is really what I'm really interested in OR RATHER it is just a 'cause-this-is-good' or just because this is what I've been studying.
I know very clearly, deep in me, I knew that it's risky to step out of the society after graduation with the current economy conditions. Advices I heard agrees with the idea of further studying. Whenever ppl asked.. 'What will you do next after your graduation?'
My immediate response will be 'GET A DEGREE' but I don't know if that's really what I want OR RATHER it's necessary that I've to go through to get a degree so as to get a good job etc etc etc...
I've been avoiding mummy questioning regarding uni admission and stuffs for months.. Now it's really time that I've to seriously think and get myself prepared to know which uni I want to go for, which faculty etc.
ANYWAY! I'm gg to stay happy cause there's no point getting so worried over such matters!
Well...
Dar dar applied MOBTV for me!!! (3 months subscription) YEAH! THANKS DEAR!
That has enable me to catch the sneak preview for THE LITTLE NONYA and no worries if I've missed any of the episodes! =D